Two Years of Bloggity Disarray
Filed Under: Thriving
Today is my two-year blogging anniversary. Two years of motley posts, unfocused ramblings, continually-changing designs. Not that that’s a bad thing.
My life, like this blog, has been in a state of disarray. But in a good way. I’ve changed and grown over the past two years, and I’m not just talking about the 25 pounds I’ve packed on. Two years ago, this post might have been full of promises and pledges for a new focus, for more dedication to certain goals, for more, more, more. Not this time. Now I’m striving for less. I’m just going to take time to be me.
And that’s awesome. I am totally and completely awesome.
There. I said it. I don’t always believe it, but I’m working on that.
When I expect too much of myself, I inevitably fall short. Then I get angry, depressed and resentful, followed quickly by impatient and short-tempered. No one benefits from this cycle, least of all my husband and children. Being a martyr, a victim, or a self-sacrificer is not the example I want to set. I do want to demonstrate to my family that they are the most important people in the world to me, save one. Me.
Gasp! Can a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom actually say that? I don’t know, but I’m going to give it a try.
Next week, I start volunteer work at a local library. I’m going to spend a little more time away from my family because we all need to be a little more independent of one another. I’ll continue to provide bloggity disarray and point you all toward whatever strikes my fancy. I’ll keep working on losing weight and keeping my cool. And if I don’t beat myself up about it or make unrealistic demands of myself, I might just succeed.
I’ve lost two pounds. And that’s totally and completely awesome.
PHAT = Parenting, Homeschooling And Technology. That about sums up my life at the moment.
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Holly Schwendiman | Mar 29, 2007 | Reply
I stopped by from the autoroll widget and have to say this post is insightful, meaningful and right on target dear.
Hugs,
Holly
Sandy Winn | Mar 30, 2007 | Reply
Shannon (sorry, btw for writing you as “Sharon” in another post)
This piece was awesome and my gosh you, are soooo real! That is why I frequent your blog, because you post real feelings, emotions, ups and downs whereas many home schoolers (myself included)paint only a rosy picture.
You’ve inspired me to be more real in my blogging and I’m with you on the weight loss, only I have 4 times the weight to lose as you do.
You go girl!!!
Judy Aron | Mar 30, 2007 | Reply
Shannon.. Love your blog and have gotten to know a little about you .. wish we lived closer I’d love to “face to face socialize..”
Your kids are adorable and you have a wonderful wit and a terrific eye for design.
Please don’t stop blogging.
Keep at the weight loss.. I am also dealing with that.. in fact.. I should be at the gym right now.. (ok, ok… I am going, I am going)
Liz | Mar 30, 2007 | Reply
You’re awesome - in person, too! - happy blogversary!
Angela,MotherCrone | Mar 30, 2007 | Reply
You go girlfriend! That’s the spirit, and the truth that so many don’t ever admit. You are awesome! And correct that awesome doesn’t have to be perfect. Really, that would be too boring!
I’ve been thinking about you, and glad to hear things are going well. Hopefully this independence might leave time for a girl’s night again soon!
Jessica | Mar 31, 2007 | Reply
Dear Shannon,
Your creativity, tenacity, and intelligence sets you apart and alway has. You are an overachiever in many arenas, and I think you expect to be in EVERY area of life or else you feel like a failure. That’s an awful lot of pressure or a Mom of 2 small children. Now that you are a mother, you’ve seen how things don’t always go as planned, in fact, they rarely do. It IS enough to just to be you. With the extra 23 pounds or without. Be gentle with yourself. You ARE enough whether you get everything on your list done today to perfection, or you lay on the couch like a hedonist and eat ice cream and watch sappy movies all day. I, for one, vote for the latter. You deserve it, you’ve earned it, and damnit, it’s time for a break!! You have the love of a man that will never break your heart and 2 beautiful children. Enjoy them and know that YOU made the right choices that got you here. You are already at the top of the mountain. Enjoy the view and don’t be in a hurry to race down the other side just yet.
Love,
Jess
Sprittibee | Mar 31, 2007 | Reply
Happy 2 Year Blogiversary! You VanGogh girl!
Trixie | Mar 31, 2007 | Reply
Happy anniversary, Shannon! Loved this post. SO pleased to read your words: “I am totally and completely awesome.” You are, and I know it’s a real leap for you to say so. You’re right; this post is different from the goals, schedules, and promises that have marked so many of your previous “new beginnings”.
As a homeschooling mom who knows she’s her own most important person too, I’m thrilled at the prospect of your new self-focus. I hope your new attitude reaps wonderful things for you and those you love.