The Wrath of the Princess

Update on C’s sleep issues: She is not sick anymore, so it’s time to teach this girl how to sleep. Tonight I nursed her and put her in her crib before she was completely asleep (I usually nurse her and wait until she is OUT COLD before moving her to the crib). Naturally, she protested. Loudly. Then VERY LOUDLY. I returned to her room every 15 minutes to soothe her, but did not pick her up. You can imagine that this didn’t go over very well. Seeing me come into the room seemed to piss her off even more, her high-pitched wails saying YOU CANNOT OUTLAST MY WRATH.

I busied myself by cleaning - gives me an outlet for my aggression. There were knots in my stomach and my jaw was locking up with tension. I HATE hearing my children cry. But I knew I had to stick with it. And I’ll have to stick with it for many more nights, I suspect.

She cried for nearly an hour. Right now, I’m not sure if I am the worst Mom on the planet or the best.