Make Another Choice

I haven’t posted in a while - been dealing with some things. Guilt, basically. Do other Moms have all this guilt? Children start out pure and perfect and then we just screw them up. It’s tough to see some of my not-so-desirable personality traits staring me in the face when I look at my kids. And how do I work on changing those traits in them, when I don’t even have them under control myself?

I was pretty down this past week, but I’m feeling better. Our family doctor once told me, “Guilt is not an effective form of parenting.” True. It doesn’t do any good to wallow in woulda, coulda, shoulda. And having a bad attitude about who I am and the choices I’ve made is certainly not something I want to pass on to my kids.

I’ve made decisions in the past that I thought were the best decisions at that time. All I can do is act in the best interest of my family right now. If things are going wrong, I can make another choice today. I’m going to stop feeling guilty and allow myself to change and grow and move forward. Even if I do screw them up - they are still the most perfect, sweet, intelligent children in the world in my eyes. I love you two - a hundred million billion infinities.